After this Friday my stomach will look something like this. It has been a journey for me that started this summer. I never thought I'd be one to have to resort to this but I am. All my life I've struggled. I'm not an overeater, I don't have thyroid or other health problems that lead to weight gain, I don't eat lots of junk and processed foods...but there is something wrong. Maybe it's a non-existant metabolism? Whatever the reason I've been overweight for as long as I can remember. Since I've been in my late teens to present I've always had the same weight (talk about a maintainer). With both my babies I was able to wear all my own clothes...sure I had the preggo belly but I never really gained enough weight to change sizes in clothes. Once they were born I was right back to the weight I started at. Talk about frustrating. Even the year my hubby spent in Korea I made a point to be in the gym at least 3 days a week...30 minutes of hard cardio, walking 2 miles, and 15 minutes in weight training...not a pound shed. Strange huh?
I guess I just finally got fed up. I'm tired all the time now. I could literally sleep the day away if I didn't make myself get up. My energy levels are next to nothing. Caffeine does nothing for me. I love to walk and do things at the gym but lately I just am usually to tired to force myself. So after much talk with the hubby, a chat with a wonderful surgeon on the base who said he would refer me to the local surgeon to performs the procedure, and many daily prayers pleading that if this is God's will for me all will move forward and be well....I am starting a new journey in my life. A even healthier me!
Am I excited...sure...not jumping out of my skin excited but I'm excited. Make sense? Am I nervous? Not yet...give me until Thursday when I check in at the hospital and then again on Friday when the surgery will be performed. I'm at peace with this. I still seek God daily to make sure this is part of His will for me and that all will be okay...so far not one doubt has been allowed to creep in from the enemy of my soul.
God doesn't make mistakes...I just didn't take care of what He gave me. Thank goodness He has given us the means through the abilities He has gifted doctors with to help make things better thorugh medical means. Let the new journey of me begin...may I be worthy of this change and God's grace upon my life!
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Praying that it all goes smoothly. I have a friend that had it done a couple of months ago, and she's doing great. (In fact, we didn't even know she'd had it done until a couple of weeks later when she let the cat out of the bag, she recovered so quickly)
Good luck Leslie!!!
Good for you Leslie! I'll be praying everything goes well and that you recover quickly. Just curious...does Tricare cover this? Also...well, maybe I'll PM you on FB...I have some ?s.
i'm thinking of you sweetie. big hugs to you!
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